An Outcast Says: Heights of Madness

2011-02-07T17:29:00.001-08:00

An Outcast Says: Heights of Madness: "This world would have been a lot better place without any castes & religionsSo is my life... I always believed one day i am gonna be a..."

Heights of Madness

2011-02-07T17:29:00.000-08:00

This world would have been a lot better place without any castes & religions

So is my life... I always believed one day i am gonna be a newsmaker, but never thought it would be for such a notorious activity. Will this country ever be religious-free? Does god really exist? Those who believe so will call me a mental disorder person, educated fool or spoilt adult or whatever, but those who don't will... What was my mistake born in a multi-religious country? Or brought up in a typical tamil cultural way? Or loved someone with all my heart? Is there any place exist for good people in this world? How long are we gonna keep chanting Baratiyar's slogan JADHIKAL ILLAIYADI PAPPA (there is no such thing called religion) and never follow them? There are three sides to every story my side, your side and THE TRUTH. No one is lying though here i am explaining my side. As a matter of fact you can call this my TESTAMENT.

I Abdullah Khan (Abde Khan), this is my story. For the best i skip the first sixteen years of my life as it got nothing to do with this madness. When i was seventeen my life also changed forever (like it is for most of the teens). I did my higher secondary studies at Tagore Matriculation Higher Secondary School (gaol), Deviyakurichi. One of the worst school in terms of the way they taught students, run by bunch of uneducated (most of them) philanthropists (they call themselves). This is the place where i met the most important person of my life, my love, my angel Nithya daughter of Radhakrishnan (actually it all started on 15th of August 2004). It wasn't love at first sight like it happens in movies. She wasn't the most beautiful girl in the world, yet in a way she is to me... you know what i mean, i saw something very good in her, something invisible and something very strong in her pulled me towards her. Most of the people will call it lust or infatuation but i swear it wasn't. I don't believe in reincarnation stuff but when i met her i couldn't fathom myself that thought. My life changed forever after that, she looked to me as if though she is the only one exist in this world. Everything about her appealed to me so much, my angel, she is everything to me... I'll never stop when i start talking about her, so for the best let's move on.

In my school days out of sheer curiosity i did a stupid thing 'wrote a love letter to her and the philanthropist found out. In my school boys aren't allowed to talk to girls, that's the first and foremost rule to follow. I'm not talking about what happened in 1980's it all happened in 2004 and still continuing... boys talking to girls is a big SIN as per my school rules. I wrote a love letter then imagine what could have been possibly happened to me. They should have beaten me or advised me instead they rung my parent and sent me home (they treated me as if though i have breached national security). Words aren't enough to describe what kind of humiliation and embarrassment i went through. After so many arguments from my parents the philanthropists agreed to let me continue my studies. I concentrated on studies for my parents sake did well in final exams and got good reputable score, even got admission abroad for my higher studies and waited for her to complete schooling. She was my junior (one year after all).

to be continued...